| ::Deep down i know u feel something too:: |
[Dec. 4th, 2006|07:51 pm] |
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::okay so basically i dont even know where i can start to explain my self it is very complicated i have alot goin on in my life right now .... first of alll lets start with my weekend was a good one....beside wat happpen late on friday aghh ppl these days just dont knwo when to stop i LOVE my best FRIENDS soo much lets just say that knowing the fact that were not drug freaks lol...gezz newho..
so theres this boy named i dont wanna say cuz yah that i honestly i have liked and basically just had a crush on, hes my best friend and thats fo sho ... i tell that boy everything besides how i feel about him deep down.. i mean lately we have kinda like gave vibes u know but i just didnt know but this weekend i fouund out something that made me really smile .:} that he may feel something too i was soo happy just to know, something u know like knowing the fact that he feels sommething for me... we seriould get along so well hes suh a great person i honestly dont know wat it is about him i relaly cant explain.. hes just an all around awesome guy and my best friend at that,
i know maybe i may be thing too much of this but seriously i need to stop doing that cuz it seems to no be getiin me anywhere i mean i must not now how to aprroch a boy wheni feel something like i dont say anything cuz i dont wanna look to attacted u know, and then it ends and just fades away.. or like i do something wrong or he just moves on its werid i dont understand it..
all i want is to just be happy right now be with someone that makes me happy someone i like and can just be myself around u know.. i mean yah i have liked guys in between the way i feel about this him but it doesnt work out eith those boys and i just still always have those spedcial feelings for him...it just sucks cuz now there is ONE huge BIG problem..
right now he has a gf that i think he really likess.. i thnk i mean he doesnt talk about her around me ..and usally he does talk abotu all the girls he hooked up with r likes.. but this chick he hasnt really said anything like when i asked him abotu he was like who told u that and blah and hten was like o i heard u like brandon buck this was like in the beg whne he first started talking to her,, and now their like together and i dont like it at all it makes me BASIALLY sad Jealous.. mad andeverything in between buz this girl is just totally not good for him im not just saying that..but like seriouly shes a totally slut everyone knows it u say her name and everyone goes OMG lol..and she just werid....thats pretty much it.& shes just not cute...
i dont know wat it is that makes him want to be with her soo much aghh..
soo now i dont know wat to do , should i tell him how i feel and how should i apporach that> or should i not do anything at all... and just let it be reallly though i just likehim soo much that i dont think it would be right to just forget baout it
i mean at frist i was like k watever he has a gf soo o well :/ then like these feeling started coming back when ever we hangoutt i have liked him soo ong and i just dont know wat to do can someone help me
but then i just dont wanna loose him as a friend and he think im werid cuz i have these feeling and he totally thiks that its not like that u know wat i mean aghhhhh its suks soo bad
and now that i knwo he has something for me or at least i thnk he does cuz my friend asked him ...and like hes like yah i do have a crush on him..
i mean now that i know that it just makes meee really happppppyyy u know i just dont know wat too do i just wanna be with him and things beotay and we just be happy... and drunk fun night hhhaa and have funnn and everything hahaahahahah
but ya of course not im stuck n i dont know wat to fucking do:
deep down i just know he wants to be with me at alest i think so :/
man this serio |
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[Oct. 21st, 2006|12:51 pm] |
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i pretty much dont understand this world that i live in! :[ |
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| WHO TOOK MY SHIT!! :{ MY FUCKIN CAMERA |
[Oct. 16th, 2006|01:09 pm] |
WHO EVER TOOK MY CAMERA AT JOSHS HOUSE IS HELLLLA FUCKED UP I JUST FUCKING BOUGHT THIS SHIT SERIOUSLY THERE ARE SOME SHADY AS PPL OUT THERE!!!!
IT WAS AT JOSHS HOUSE WITH ME AND SOMEONE SERIOUSLY JACKED MY SHIT
PPL R SOO FUCKED UP
IF U SEE ANYONE HAVE MY CAMERA FUCKING TELL ME PLZ
I REALlY NEED IT BACK!!
PLZZZ :[ |
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| I WANT THIS TO HAPPEN |
[Oct. 14th, 2006|10:44 am] |
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If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?
Would it change how you feel?
I am the mess you chose
The closet you cannot close,
The devil in you I suppose
'Cause the wounds never heal.
[Chorus:]
But everything changes
If I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
Then I could learn to feel,
Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real.
[Chorus]
When it's just me and you.
Who knows what we could do.
If we can just make it through
The toughest part of the day.
[Chorus]
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
Is more than just a word.
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
Would it matter anyway?.
It wouldn't change how you feel.
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| [if i really was to loose all my FRIENDS! :[ |
[Sep. 19th, 2006|07:08 pm] |
this noooor fair i cant talk to any of my friends all of them are apart of the every 15 min its kindda SAd becazuse i like cant tlak to them itsl ike they really are freakin dead WTF its like if this really would have happen i would of been like a LONELY lil girl its wayy to freakin sad... aghh i love all my FRIENDS :] KAR TIFF CASEY DOM CORRINA if i honestly really lost u it would be just me and BREEZY like i honsetlty dont even know wat my life would be like id prob fuck up the ppl that killed u llol my life wouldnt be complete i prob would kill my self |
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| {A GREAT 17 BIRTHDAY} |
[Sep. 18th, 2006|09:27 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
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| | NOTHING :[ | ] |
Soo this was pretty much a good weekend lol i had a lot of fun especially on friday at travis party it started out as a werid weekend though lol big ass fight and a lot of drmaa at travis but i was hella cool with it later on lol man o man was i completely gone like to the max lol dont meber much o well neways soo saturday was hella fun......i woke up breezy came over then we went out then went to breezy house laid back and waited till it was like 4:30 before we went to frisco i was like totally excited lol... me and breezy were like not even ready haha it was pretty funny! neways we went to my house then basically everyone came of my casa we head of to bart and then was on our way to frisco lol i was kinda scared of wat the night wasd gonna end up ass i was soo excited to celebrate my b-day woo hoo lol we ate at HOOTERS haha that night was going good untill out bill was like 200 dollars nman o man! lol EXPENSIVE neways after we got out were need to get back to bart and we had to walk all the piers ooo gosh i was not feelin good at alll like at all i started to cry cuz my stomach hurtsoo bad it was alll bad like really though!!! aghhh iwas sad fianlly we gotto bart and it was delayed like a 20 something wait aghhh it was REDONKOULS seriously lol man! oo and then like! i felt kinda better when we got back into town but o well.. lol....we get to me house and its hellla chill i was pretty much bored alllll night wat ever at least i was with me girls and we were just chillin i love my girls soo much i just wanted to say to all my girls that i love u too mcuh and thanks for everythingthat u girls did with FOR ME!! i loved it my b-day was a one to member lol FIANLLY 17 niggga woo hoo soo the tNEXT day was my raely b-day lol ok so we went to breakfest i get back home and my brothers trohpy was gone and iwas in hecca trouble someone stole it i finally knwo who it was n goti back it was likei honely dont care ut iwas my bros and was hecca sad aghh ppl r lame and need to know wehn ENOUGH is a enpough i could care less wat they do but dont take something in my hosue thats not mine really though wateer i went toeh movies after we got i back and went to my grnamas and it was FUN soo its okay i get my new camera for my b-day soo im hellla pumped lol.!well yah i had a pretty good b-day! 17 not yet 18 aghh well yah!! :]i love u girls!
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[Sep. 12th, 2006|01:11 pm] |
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| [over it!] SoOO u get OVER IT! :] |
[Sep. 12th, 2006|01:06 pm] |
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well okay soo pretty much all that i got to say is that im over it!! and all this frekain drama honestly i didnt call u trailer even if i did i dont member soo watever and pretty mcuh sorry if i fucking did!! really ur not worth my fucking time and!! its Redonklous how u think u can just come to my fucking house like give me a fucking break bitch get a fucking life how fuckin low r u and really ifu wannted to come and fight me wich is prettty fuckin lame cuz u were the one that fucking called me a sluuty bitc!! at gregs house soo bitch u fucking sarted it wat the fuck do u want me to just let u sit there and fucking talk shit about me FUCK no especially becuzz! its fucking someone thats not even fucking my friend and someone that i could CARE less about and !! someone that i didnt DO FUCKING SHIT TO NOTHIN AT all and wat the FUCk can u name that i fucking did u to fucking nothing soo u fucking sya that u never fucking liked well bitch dont fucking waste ur time on me FUCK get over it! go on with life were fucking! seniors in high school about to fucking graduate and u HAVE no fucking right to call me that sooo FUKckin shut the FUCK UP and get over ur self and BITCH stop sayin that u fucking came to me house and BEAT ME hella up!!! and ppl that fucking i NOW know who fucking said that i called her trailer trash WHO THE FUCK FO u fucing think u are HONESTLY GET THE FUCK OUT OF IT AND STOP STARTIN DRAMA FUCK!! aghhh i PRETTY MUCH HATE THIS! watever THOUGH NOW im totally over it and fucking DUMB add drama and if u think ur gonna fight me thats fucking STUPID as fuck and i wouldnt do that at travis and BRANONS! soo fuck it!! & dont thingk ur coming to my house RUININ MY FUCKING B-day !! FUCK It!!!! so u mine asss WELL GET THE FUCK OVER! IT! :} |
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